Month: January 2019

This post blew my mind. https://dearadoption.com/2018/11/06/dear-adoption/

“As an adoptee, my trust issues ran the gamut from not trusting at all, to trusting too much and too easily. I don’t know which came first, the chicken or the egg, but I would go through times where I trusted no one at all and then shift to suddenly trusting someone with my whole life story. Not surprisingly, this would tend to scare people away, too much information too soon, giving me a reason, at least to my way of thinking, for swinging back to the other pole, where I trusted no one.

“That all said, the root issue for me is fear, the fear of the unknown, the fear of rejection, and the fear of being deeply, deeply, hurt. 

“The process of healing from adoption related trauma, for me, has been like peeling the skin off an onion: there seems to always be yet another layer, and tears are often involved.”

I’ve been trying to explain that I have a particular interest in and enthusiasm for anything that levels the playing field for homely women. No one gets it, though.

Had the oil changed yesterday at Sullivan Tire. Got a ride home on their shuttle. Also had the air filter changed and upper radiator hose clamp replaced.

Big blow-up with Paul and have been kicked off the M2R FB page. PW thinks that’s ridiculous.

SOS and fellow contributors have my back on their page, though.

Finishing up MRS.

We’ve been treating Ron’s leg following a bad scrape from his adventure on the roof. Using one of the silver patches from my post-surgical wound supplies.

We opened a savings account yesterday at First Citizens. Had a long chat with a person who turned out to be the Regional Branch Manager. Not happy about cooling our heels for half an hour, with no apology at that.

Made two loaves of pumpkin bread for James and Robert.

Goofed up a UPS shipment label and am waiting for them to find it and send it back.

Spent part of the morning with M2R and caught up with a teenager’s birthday party at Starbucks which I wasn’t supposed to know about. Terrific kid, wanted to give him a small gift.

Boxed up another “buyer’s remorse” package for mailing via Post Office on Monday.

Ron worked some more on breaking up the squirrel’s nests.

Had an outstanding visit with James yesterday.

We had pizza and taco salad at Brothers, then came back here for tea and a great conversation about history and politics.

He never even told us he made Dean’s List.

What a guy!

Erik removed the fifth squirrel and trapped the sixth. We were worried it would freeze, so Ron covered the trap with an old blanket.

This morning, the squirrel was fine. The blanket had fallen off. We squared up with Erik. Asked for a quote from Sunnova for critter guards, since Trinity doesn’t install them.

Can’t find anyone to remove the nests, so Ron is going to try to do it himself. He likes ladders even more than his chainsaw.

MRS went live yesterday afternoon. Two enrollments already. Sent an invoice today.

Erik has trapped four so far and saw a fifth just now.

Looking for help removing the nests.

Full house at last night’s Compassion & Choices lecture at UUFF.

Eggplant meatloaf and fancy salad for supper last night.

Ron had a good checkup yesterday.

Ron got a big check from Cal that should cover most of his health insurance premiums for this year. He’s promised to set up a savings account.

Some good soul posted all 4+ hours of the Roy Hargrove Musical Tribute on Youtube! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RpfyHOE521M

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I picked up bagels at the Senior Center and went straight to Edgewater to get Peter’s help with trash and recyclables before he went to work.

Went with Ron to his doctor’s new office for blood work, then we offloaded at the transfer station and dropped off the Sandwich library book at their book drop in South Sandwich.

Got a call while in transit from a pest removal company. They set up HaveAHeart traps to catch the squirrels under the solar panels.

Ron cut down a couple of substantial branches which we think the squirrels might have used to get on the roof from the big oak in front.

I removed and wound up the lights from the front bushes and put all the lighting goods in the attic.

More fine-tuning and bug fixes for MRS.

Cold today. 19.

Ron made omelets for lunch. I did stir fry and rice for supper.

We boxed up one joke gift (beer steins) and one nice gift (book by C.L. Fornari) for the Yankee Swap at yesterday’s M2R party.

There were several cakes, some fine entertainment and lots of good fellowship. Ron had a great time! We brought home a Woods Hole Spritsail hot plate and a four-pack of beer from the swap.

Other gifts included a basket of produce; a “crouching tiger” knick-knack; a cowbell; jam; scratch tickets.

Got the sheets changed and that was about it.

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I ran around for over 3 hours today, starting with a brief visit with the M2R standout people.

From there, I stopped in for a tour of People for Cats and their magnificent shelter. Didn’t make a connection with any of the cats which didn’t surprise me. Hope Ron might be willing to take a look.

Shopped at Walmart, Shaws and then back to Mashpee to check in at CVS for my card. Got a number to call for a replacement. Picked up a few things at Stop & Shop, including chowder for lunch.

Didn’t do anything special for supper. Ron was busy going through a huge box of paperwork. He made mulled wine, which isn’t to my liking, and cleaned up the kitchen afterwards.

Yesterday, he cleaned the coffee maker.

I had a crying breakdown yesterday after listening to a plaintive soundtrack from of all things, a video game. Talked with Cathy for a while; she helped me feel better. I was so depleted, worn out with being sick, the MRS project, money, glad to be done with the holidays.