I’ve often heard it said that people gain perspective when a loved one dies, but having had that experience this past weekend, I don’t think that’s accurate.
Rather, it’s a reaction to the fact that a catastrophic event has just blasted into smithereens every ounce of your soul’s psychic energy at the rate of about 1,000 metric tons per second. You are simply unable to care about whether a waiter botched an order or someone gave you the evil eye because you have been depleted of the ability to do so.
In other words, the so-called perspective isn’t wisdom, but exhaustion.
The Elephant in the Room
Last evening, I visited a very dear friend who was diagnosed with cancer in November 2006. At this point, not only is she confined to her home, but she’s unable to eat or from the look of it last night, unable to keep down liquids as well.
I hadn’t planned on it, but at one point, I told her how much I will miss her. It was totally spontaneous and while it certainly made sense to acknowledge that most gigantic of elephants, it feels like I’ve betrayed my friend by giving up while she is still battling to remain with us.
Willpower
Interesting article in the NY Times.
Which reminds me, I have to get ready to go to Waltham today for Microsoft New England’s ninth Code Camp.
You’re Kidding, Right?
Michael P. Lewis was the Project Director for the notorious Big Dig, a job which made him second only to disgraced chairman Matthew Amorello in the line of responsibility for all the failures of that disastrous project.
Those failures include a 500% markup in the cost, from $3 billion to $15 billion, and the death of a Jamaica Plain woman due to shoddy workmanship.
In spite of this, the Turnpike Authority Retirement Board approved payment of an enhanced pension over 3 times the normal benefit: $72,578 versus $23,000 a year.
Adding insult to injury, Lewis is now employed as Rhode Island’s transportation secretary at $130,000 a year.
So Long
I’m finally rid of my old hosting company, a big relief.
When I started with them, they were a small local reseller, two geeky preppies with a lot of ambition and technical savvy.
A lot changed through the years; they moved out of state and stopped taking phonecalls, asking that tech support questions be emailed. No one seemed to know where they were or even what business they were in.
Follow-on to What the Heck
I recorded “John Adams” last night and made the mistake of starting to watch “The Tudors”, a nauseating spectacle so irredeemably dreadful that I switched off to “Sense and Sensibility”.
Conundrum
Take a look at the pictures of this married couple from Clackamas County, Ore. and consider how you would describe their faces: http://abcnews.go.com/Health/story?id=4550151&page=1
Arrogant?
Insolent?
Absent of remorse?
Smug?
Good-looking, well-groomed, healthy, maybe even financially comfortable*?
These are the faces of couple who let their 15 month old baby die out of some kind of perverse so-called religious belief.
I look at these people, who have everything going for them, and wonder how they could have been so selfish, or so weak, or so stupid, when someone like me, who had none of their advantages, managed to raise a child to adulthood.
“There but for the grace of God” I understand, but this? I just don’t get it.
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*Clackamas County, Ore, ain’t exactly Hooterville: the county’s median income in 2004 was $67,900.
But She’s Got Murtha
I don’t care how many second-rate politicians with dreams of personal payoff have endorsed the Pretender – Hillary Clinton has Murtha.
Not that you’d know this from the MSM, who have been cackling with joy about the endorsement of Obama by Pennsylvania’s anti-choice senator, Bob Casey, for days.
I’ve said it before: when books are written about the Democratic party’s nomination process for the 2008 election, there is going to be enough dirt uncovered to fill Colorado Convention Center.
Meanwhile, as of this hour, 82% of the respondents to a poll on the Boston Herald think that Massachusetts would be better off without Obama’s clone, Governor Deval Patrick.
Caveat emptor.
And Not Just Once
What the heck…..
Tonight, all at 9:
Sense and Sensibility on PBS
John Adams on HBO
The Tudors on Showtime